Stay Humble. Be Blessed.

Today God has proved His Love once again in a miraculous and awesome way.

Yesterday I was attacked spiritually. This attack was unlike any others I have faced so far. It was disguised perfectly as a blessing and an answer to a prayer. I must be honest and say, this attack left me broken, confused and afraid. When I realized these were the effects of the attack, I knew it could not be of God. He fills the broken pieces, not creates them. He gives peace and a sound mind, not confusion. He acts and works out of love, not fear.

I wish I could say this realization helped the pain and extent of the attack, but it was very difficult to overcome. I spoke to three of the closest people in my life and received so much peach and encouragement. The biggest attack from this situation was “you’re not really doing anything or even helping.” This hit me like a ton of bricks on fire.

Most of us could agree an attack like this would upset anyone. Today though, love broke through. One of the children who has been making bracelets, working very hard, came in to me after school. He handed me some money. I asked what it was for and he said he had sold some bracelets to kids at school. I asked him why he felt he needed to give me the money and he said because he thanks me for teaching him this and thanks me for giving him the cord. This may seem little and meaningless but for me it meant the world. This young boy, who has grown up in crazy hard circumstances, humbled himself, thought through the situation and did what would benefit more people. He is only thirteen. He could have easily kept the money and never told me about him selling them, but he chose to be honest and respectable. At this moment with my friend, I heard God whisper, “See, you are doing something.” Wow. I was overwhelmed and so full of joy.

It may sound crazy, but I thank God for these trials. It brings me to my knees, fully surrendered, broken and makes me aware of the need I have for Christ. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for your encouragement. Thank you for your obedience. Stay humble. Be blessed.